What was I feeling like?
Suddenly, I got a huge disappointment in my life (I prefer not to say the reason or even what had happened with me). It was just like my world lost all sense, I was completely devastated, I didn’t know how I could survive. As a result, I started to practice exercise like crazy, anything more was enough for me. I got my hair cut, I lost 14 weight in 2 months. I didn’t want to see my friends, I was stuck in my own room, just crying. I wished many times to put an end in my life, but I didn’t do it, because if I did, I would make some people suffer, and I didn’t want that. I was depressed, and I didn’t know what it means.
For that reason I wanted to leave everything. Although I had a good job at a great company and a relatively comfortable life. How could I just leave it all? I would blame myself for the rest of my life, that’s a hard decision, but I needed to do something different. With this in mind, I decided to do an internship in Canada during my vacation.
How and when did I?
In the first place, I didn’t have too much money, but as I am very good with beads. I made a loan to pay the Internship, and I parceled my tickets, making sure that I would pay at all, before leaving.
I was horrible in English as well, so, with the help of a friend of mine, I got my Canadian Visa, and also my American visa.
How to apply for a Canadian visa:
How to apply to America visa:
I have been in Canadá per one month in September 2015. I went to Toronto, I visited Montreal, Ottawa (Capital of Canadá), Quebec, Niagara Falls, and, I also went to New York (USA).
How was this experience?
Although my heart had a lot of pain, I was there to feel happy again, I spent a lot of money on this trip, so I had to enjoy it.
Therefore I decided to put all my stories behind me. I didn’t want to remember anything, I was in Canada, I must feel that experience.
Every single day when I found a dandelion, I prayed: “ plenty of love, please”, suddenly I became to feel that feeling in my heart. I made a couple of friends in this internship, that I am still in touch with them until today.
There I was feeling happiness again. The most simple things there, made me feel happy, like: to buy a coffee in Tim Horton’s, to eat waffles with Nutella, in my breakfast, to eat a slice of America Pizza, drinking beer with my school colleagues. “ Come on, I was traveling, I wasn’t worried about to be healthy”.
I seriously cried a lot in my last day in Toronto, I didn’t want to go back to my reality, I wished to stay there forever.
To go to Canadá was the best decision that I had in my life, instead of staying crying or blaming the life, I chose to feel good feelings again, to realize one of my dreams, and I really felt like I was in a dreamy.
To travel solves depression?
In fact, going to Canada didn’t solve my troubles. Later on, I had to go to the doctor, because I still needed help, then I started my treatment. It is true, though that through the people I met during my trip, I could see myself better, who I was and where I wanted to go and be. I also felt love again, loving the world, my mom, my life, loving myself more.
Nowadays tourism is one of the biggest markets in this world, people use to spend a lot of money on travel. Of course travel doesn’t solve problems, it can create even more problems if you don’t know how to use your money wisely, but find a different way to seeing life, helps you and your process of maturity.
If you feel depressed, don’t hesitate to ask for help. Help yourself to feel better, you are not alone. In this world has a lot of people like you.
Look around, find your own way to see your life from a different angle.